Thursday 10 June 2010

Conspiracy theory?

Call me crazy ( and many have ) but I'm convinced that my housing association are using my mental health issues to drive me out of my house, in order to install a new tenant " more suited to the area". Confused? Yea me too, but bear with me.


Ok, ok, so maybe my conspiracy idea is a tad extreme, but my housing manager has honestly expressed that i may be happier in a different area. She's supposed to be on my side, but when i told her the neighbours give me evils she came out with that little gem. Surely a smile and " you'll soon settle in dear." Would have been better considering I'm becoming increasingly paranoid. Perhaps i should explain the reason behind the neighbours trepidation. The house i live in is supported housing, and the only housing association in the street ( the rest are all privately owned. ) I got the house because we were about to be made homeless, and because i have mental health issues ( don't judge me yet! ) we were housed here. The house hasn't exactly had the greatest tenant history, as the last woman who lived here put the house up for sale! After doing so, she then carted all her furniture onto the front lawn for an impromptu yard sale. Classic loony behaviour. The previous tenants weren't much better, hence the neighbours suspicion towards me.


Anyway, by now i bet you want to know exactly what my mental health issues are huh? The thing is i have ocd ( obsessive compulsive disorder ) It drives me even more crazy than i actually am. It centres around cleaning really, and having everything just so.I have like a daily routine that has to be done in a certain order. It wouldn't be so bad except when i sit down and look around all i see is dirt, and the germs, oh god the GERMS! You get the idea! So why exactly do i think they are using this to drive me out? A few weeks ago some water leaked under my kitchen floor tiles. I complained and asked for them to be fixed. ( now before you think i am truly nuts bear in mind they know full well about my ocd ) So they replace the several ruined tiles, and guess what? They are completely different tiles, they don't match! Not even close. Is that it ?? You're probably saying? To me this i the end of the world! I took great care of that kitchen floor. I scrub it by hand ( yes, on my hands and knees. ) And i polish it! Now every time i walk into my kitchen and see those horrible mismatched tiles, I gt this twitch in my eye that just will not go! And the big vein in the side of my head throbs like something the hulk would get. *sob*. They know what they are doing to me, and they just do not care! They say as long as the tiles have been replaced i will have to wait until they get new tiles in.


So now it's down to a battle of wills, them vs me! And I'm not moving dammit! I'll just have to avoid the kitchen won't i? Their tricks won't work on me-ha!

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