Friday 26 March 2010

EXTRACT THREE & CHAPTER THREE OF STORY.Please note in order for this to make sense please read extracts 1&2 first-thankyou.

Charlie's boyfriend Sam,slammed his fist into the wall over and over,untill his hand was so slippery with blood,he could'nt continue.Charlie had been gone for days now,and no one,not even the police would take him seriously."she's a grown woman.Although as she's been gone longer than 24.We are looking sir!"they said.Her parents said;"she's been on benders for days at a time before now."
But he knew!He knew what the scars of her ex Daniel,had left on Charlie.Both physically and mentally.This whole thing was extremley wrong.She was still petrified that he would make good his threats.And find her.She barley ever left the house alone!Sam and Charlie had a two hour rule.If they were apart and one hadn't contacted the other after 2 hours,and the phone in question was off,somthing was very wrong.Sobbing in frustration,knowing what the girl he adored,was going through right now!He fell to his knees retching violently.He had her!He knew it and no one would listen.There was only him to help her now.(if she was still alive.)Although he knew if her spirit was not on this earth anymore,he would feel her complete absence,but her prescence was all around him.Quickly rising to his feet,he grabbed his keys off the kitchen table,and ran out of the front door.Slamming it violently behind him.

Monday 22 March 2010

Wedding's

Some of you may know that im getting married in july.Unlike other friends and couples we are doing this as cheaply as we possibly can.I mean who has 10grand+ to spend on 1 day?Certainly not me!The biggest expense for our wedding will be the mariage liscence,and the wedding rings! I even got my dress cheap and customized it with swarzki crystals.I'd rather have any extra money i have on the honeymoon!Anyway,i just do not understand why people feel the need to spend thousands on their wedding's?As far as i'm concerned our wedding day is about just the two of us,standing up in front of our friend's and relatives,and commiting ourselves to each other.(pass the sick bucket right?).
Anyway what i REALLY want to know is year's ago marriage was less of a choice and more of a nessecity.I mean back then couples "courted"for a long time.There was no sneaky under the clothes fondling back then.If you were serious about the woman you married her,plain and simple!What i want to know is how did they afford these weddings?It's not like the average man's wages were high,family's strrugled to get by.Although im pretty sure both party's were eager to get down the isle and get to the honeymoon part.And so the money got found from somewhere.
No sex before marriage is a great and honourable thing (my own brother managed it (and his wife is drop dead gorgeous)how he restrained himself,i do not know!If you do have the willpower to abstain untill you're wedding day.what then? I mean,how awkward is that fumble under the sheets going to be on what is supposed to be the happiest day of their lives?? Sounds a bit cringeworthy to me.I mean what if you wait all that time,get married,and then discover on you're wedding night,that you're partner is awfull in bed!!! *cringe*I guess practice makes perfect and you can have great fun finding out how to float each other's boats (wink).
Somepeople stay together 10 years or so and never get married.I mean why would they though?The bloke gets to have his cake and eat it without spending a penny!
Im sure men all over the country are saying to their partner's right now "babe we've been rock solid all these years.Why do we need a piece of paper to prove i love you?" or "yes darling when we eventually have enough money(he would prob be working minimum wage and knows full well,that they will NEVER have enough money) of course we'll get married!
Any of this familiar to you lady's? Or maybe it's you're fella that wants to tie the knot and the excuses are you'rs.Anyway,weddings love or hate them,planning on doing it or not....remember this scince us women were very young we've had everything,and i mean everything,the dress the flowers etc.picked out and dreamt about.With our groom in his suit,face blacked out untill mr right comes along and we can paste his face on the suit of our groom!So be sensative lads,we had our wedding planned when you're mums were still wiping you're noses for you!
by Emma carter

Sunday 21 March 2010

WARNING

WARNING SOME EXPLICIT CONTENT IN SOME OF THESE BLOGS!!!

Saturday 20 March 2010

ALTERNATIVE POEM

You look into my eye's,
I avert my gaze.Scared of what you'll see in me.
Would you love me if you knew?
Would you're tender touch,be so gentle,if you knew the depths of me?
The pain he left me with, you turned it to love.
Can i love the way you need from me?
My skin has healed,but my soul is scarred.Do you see the diesease that spreads inside me?
The deep shadows that haunt my memories.they say that time heals all,you're gone from my life but the scars remain.
I srare at the night sky,and see you're face in the stars,mocking me.
You're voice a whisper on the wind,on the street, i turn to the sound of footsteps behind me.My heart beating through my chest,will it be you i see?
I will never be free.
How can i ask you to carry my pain?
You melted the ice of bitterness he instilled in me.
But baby the shackles that bind me will never break.

by emma carter (johnson)

Thursday 18 March 2010

part 1 and two of story im writing

If im lucky enough to get anyone read my blog .Please could you read them in order 2 avoid confusion.As part 2 is above part 1.So please scroll down and read extractv 1 first.thankyou. much love emmaxxxxxx

extract 2 continued from extract 1 of story im writing

"She barely had time to catch her breath,before he hauled her back to her feet.She began to whimper as he lifted her off the floor,rough hands gripping her by the face.'Are you scared yet babe?We have a lot of catching up to do yet!'With an almighty push,he sent her skidding accross the concrete.Anticipating another atack she raised her head to look at him.Blood pooling on the floor beneath her where her chin had split as shed hit the floor.
His laughter rang in her ears as he sauntered casually towards her.Wrapping his hand through her long blonde hair,he hauled her to her feet.Dragging her by her hair,he flung her onto the mattress.His eyes boring into her,as she winced at the pain the texture of the mattress chaffing on her lacerated body.
Before her thoughts could turn to the jagged metal,hidden beneath the mattress,he was upon her.She fought to choke back the sobs rising in her throat.As his rough calloused hands trailed between her breasts,using one hand he pinned both her wrists above her head.His weight holding down her legs,he felt his way down to the silver and diamonte bar,that protruded from her bellybutton.'And when did you get this?You fucking tart.It looks ridiculous.What do you think you look like?Your way too fat too pull this off!' Holding the top of the trinket,and the round gem nestled in her bellybutton between his forefinger+thumb.He gazed into her red rimmed eyes as he tore the jewellry straight through her flesh.Splitting the skin between the hole in her bellybutton and the manmade hole where the bar had first pierced the skin."As the blood trickled from the wound,she knew any noise she made alerting him to her pain,would only serve to excite him.The last trace of dignity she had would not allow him the satisfaction.Biting into the tender flesh of her lip,her scream reverbrated through her head.Still pinning her down with his weight,he released her arms,and began to wriggle out of his jeans,his erect penis jutting towards her,and she knew he could see the revulsion in her eyes.She knew she had to bide her time.Make her move too soon and he'd kill her.He had to be vulnerable when she acted.Reaching a trembling hand towards him,he grabbed her wrist."I want to see all of you thats all.Can i take off you're shirt?""so you can try somthing when my shirts going over my head?I dont fucking think so you dumb bint!"Sneering at her he ripped his shirt clean off his body,like it was nothing more than a rag.She braced herself for the assault that was to follow,closing her eyes but instead of feeling his hands on her body,she felt his hands wrap around her throat.As he began to squeeze,she opened her eyes to see him grinning inanely down at her.His excitment evident as his penis began to harden."oh god im going to die down here!"Was the last thought that went through her head.His gleefull grunts fading with her into unconciousness.Her eyelids fluttered, as she came around to him slapping her face.Forcing her back to conciousness.Her bruised throat on fire,agin he wrapped his hands around her neck.Her larynx so bruised,she was unable to make a sound.For the nxt 40 minutes he proceeded to strangle her to the point of unconciousness.Each time bringing her back around,sadistcally repeating the process,his perverse excitment at the power he held ovr her life or death,could be contained no longer,his pulsating erection now at the forefront of his mind............

extract 1 from story i'm writing

: "Extract from story am writing. 'i told you bitch wherever you go,whatever you do.i will find you.did you really think you could run from me?' he spat.'daniel i...'she stuttered.'daniel nothing!its taken you fucking days to realize who i am,you fucing whore.have you been with that many men you couldnt remember me without seeing my face?'he released his grip on her throat pushing on her windpipe as he did so.gasping for breath,she began to splutter 'no.no.its just,i was confused,couldnt think straight!' 'enough excuses!'he bellowed,making her flinch,automatically waiting for the blow ,before he began the rant that she knew would follow,she had to act,had to get his guard down and revert back to the victim he had kept her as for so long.'i never stopped thinking about you.'she said softly.his dark eyes flashed with hatred,his breathing heavy almost gutteral.'get up!'he hissed.fear spread through her like ice through her veins.'get up'he repeated.she tried to rise from the floor,her legs desperate to give way.her knees buckling as she struggled to her feet.shaking she stood before him,naked and ashamed under his unflinching gaze.without a word he struck a blow to her tender stomach,the air hissing from her as she crumpled to her knees."

Wednesday 17 March 2010

has porn damaged our sex lives?part 1

I was in bed with my boyfriend(post coital glow all around) and after the heavy breathing had stopped,sometimes we like to have a conversation about the nitty gritty of our sex life.So he asks me 'how come you're not all that loud when we have sex?'This coming from the man who holds his breath while cumming.And desperatley tries to hide his orgasm face.I digress.Anyway,flashback to other boyfriends who have asked me the same thing! It's not like im not enjoying myself .It's just that i really don't want 90 year old mrs jones next door to know exactly what we are doing.How would i face her over the washing line the next day?And then it hit me.PORN!!! our mens early bible to sex! If we are not screaming in manner of Linda lovejuice at decibals of a horror film heroine running through the woods(sorry probably not the best comparison) then they think they are shit in bed!I mean honestly how many of us actually thrash around the bed screaming like banshees(at least not all of the time anyway).It's not just that though,thanks to porn they expect us to be leg hair/armpitt hair/and bikini hair free all the time.And who among us normal girls can live up to that? Then theres the issue that thanks to porn,we are supposed to be size 8,and completley lump and bump free.So you decide ladies has porn done damage to you're sex life? or have you been influenced by porn and feel you have to act as though on a porn set,to keep you're man happy? Look out for part 2 on the bad side of porn"
by emma carter